October 31st- Stop It

I have no patience left. I just want this holter monitor OFF.


October 28 – The Struggle

Good news! Matt got a job offer today! But it will not be easy.
It is 40 minutes away from the house and pays $8 the first four weeks and then $10 after that if Matt chooses to work 40 hours six days a week.
Now that we have an offer on the table we see things will not be as easy as we had thought.
Matt is having a tough time. He is carrying everything on his shoulders. He wishes he could get a job offer that would allow him to support both of us.
But what we have is an offer that will not quite support himself. Especially those first four weeks. Matt is terrified to fail.
But he is not in this alone. This job is doable and has the best future potential of any job he has interviewed for in the last six months.
He does not have to start off finding the perfect job. This is just the start.
I know he does not want to, but he will need to let me help him to get him through this. We are a team. That is what marriage is about.

October 27th – Hope!

Matt has been hired to teach music lessons in Canton part time! It is not much, but it is s start. He also has an interview for a very good call center tomorrow.
I had my section meeting today. It was interesting. These are now my best connection to the profession golf world. I am quite isolated otherwise. It makes these meetings so much more important.
I am exhausted. And my heart has been giving me trouble the last half hour.
My doctor’s appointment is tomorrow. I am not really sure what I am going to say.
“Hi! Yeah, my heart has been feeling funny lately…”
I need to remember my heart is “feeling funny” on average six days a week. That is cause for alarm.

October 26th – Heather’s Shower

For once, instead of attending a social event I wish I could have stayed home. Even if staying home meant helping Dad chop and stack wood.
Heather’s shower was boring. The food consisted of sandwich meats, tiny dinner rolls, cheese, crackers, fruit, and a veggie tray. Hardly filling compared to the wonderful chili Mom made for Dad and the boys.
Then Heather and Melissa spoke so softly no one could hear them.
It was boring. Even for a shower it was boring.
Matt and I are all kinds of stresses out right now. And my sisters make everything worse. Matt needs to make more copies of his resume. I will be gone early in the morning for my section meeting. Heather will be at the office early, but she locks the door until nine and will be ticked to have to unlock it for Matt. I am about ready to rip her a new one.
I feel once Matt and I are moved into the house with jobs everything will be alright. No one to bother is. The bills will be paid without too much worry. We can throughly enjoy each other’s company for once (innuendo intended!).
I am sure it will not turn out like that. In my mind all of this will be done in six months. But it hardly seems realistic.

October 25th – Six Months!!!!

Wow! Six months from tonight Matt and I will be married!
My heart fluttered a lot while I taught a lesson today. Luckily Tuesday is my doctor’s appointment.
The house is full of people right now. Melissa and Josh flew in this morning. Jake is here as well. Heather’s bridal shower is tomorrow.
Neither my sisters or Jake and Josh make any attempt to talk to me. The only time anyone says anything to me is to ask me to do something to get ready for the shower.
Matt is coming tomorrow for church and to spend time with the guys while I’m at the shower. I cannot wait to spend the rest of my day with him.