My name is Ashley and I used to write decent blog posts.
I came back home at a better hour than I normally do. The last month has been a whirlwind!
Matt has been living ten minutes away from me for the last month. We have seen each other every day! These are the ways in which this move has changed us:
1) Less sleep! I stay at the “Honeymoon Cottage” until after ten every night. Matt is still adjusting to a new home and is paranoid about oversleeping. But luckily for Matt he is finding he can function just fine on only six hours of sleep.
I, on the other hand, neaely fell asleep at lunch after consuming two cups of tea and four cups of coffee this morning. Hence, why I am home earlier tonight.
2) Grocery Shopping and Eating. This is the only place where Matt and I have differences of opinion. He wants to do the majority of the grocery shopping at the two cheapest stores he knows every week. I would normally agree with his philosophy. But said stores are a half hour drive away. I believe in buying our groceries every two weeks at those stores sans guitar, vegetables, and meat products and purchasing those nearby as needed.
I think this will be a dance between us that will take some time before we start to find a pattern that is natural to us.
Matt and I eat every meal together except breakfast during the week and lunch during work hours. And I am pretty sure we are bothgaining weight! So this week I am going to make an extra effort to cut down on side dishes.
3) Our Relationship. We get to talk about every little thing that crosses our minds outside of work. The result is we have become so open and laid-back. I wish I had an example, but this late at night none come to mind. Our communication was good before. But now it is excellent!
I cannot help but wonder what will come in the months ahead until the wedding. And I wonder how our relationship will change again after we are married. This is certainly a ride, but I would not do this with anyone else by my side.
Matt and I have been working on the house for three days now. The kitchen is now semi-usable. The dishwasher needs cleaned, walls painted, curtains, and a table and we will be all set for guests!
Seriously, we have worked our little butts off. My hands are so dry from all the cleaning chemicals and Matt’s soap of choice.
Tomorrow Matt, Larry, and I are playing “You Raise Me Up” in church. Larry will be in the piano, Matt singing, and I will play my violin. This is a surprise for Lisa. She loves this song and has always wanted Matt to sing it.
Lisa is throwing us a “small” engagement party tomorrow. A lot of it has been kept under wraps from Matt and I. But it appears a lot of people know about it.
I worry about Matt. I think tomorrow it is really going to hit him he is moved out. To be honest, it still has not sunk in for me yet. Part of me still thinks he will disappear back to Pennsylvania.
Good news! Matt got a job offer today! But it will not be easy.
It is 40 minutes away from the house and pays $8 the first four weeks and then $10 after that if Matt chooses to work 40 hours six days a week.
Now that we have an offer on the table we see things will not be as easy as we had thought.
Matt is having a tough time. He is carrying everything on his shoulders. He wishes he could get a job offer that would allow him to support both of us.
But what we have is an offer that will not quite support himself. Especially those first four weeks. Matt is terrified to fail.
But he is not in this alone. This job is doable and has the best future potential of any job he has interviewed for in the last six months.
He does not have to start off finding the perfect job. This is just the start.
I know he does not want to, but he will need to let me help him to get him through this. We are a team. That is what marriage is about.
Wow! Six months from tonight Matt and I will be married!
My heart fluttered a lot while I taught a lesson today. Luckily Tuesday is my doctor’s appointment.
The house is full of people right now. Melissa and Josh flew in this morning. Jake is here as well. Heather’s bridal shower is tomorrow.
Neither my sisters or Jake and Josh make any attempt to talk to me. The only time anyone says anything to me is to ask me to do something to get ready for the shower.
Matt is coming tomorrow for church and to spend time with the guys while I’m at the shower. I cannot wait to spend the rest of my day with him.
Matt had an interview with Aflac today for insurance sales. It has given Matt the first real glimmer of hope we had had in a long time on the job market.
It is your usual 1099 sales job. They pay for a good bit of your insurance licensing. There are a lot of people who make s great living doing this.
And there are a lot of people who fail to support themselves.
We are seriously considering this.
I would have to support Matt the first few months to a year. So if we are going to do this, then now is the time. I am gearing up for tax season and poised to make some great paycheck from now until the wedding. We do not have kids to support (yet). This will be the only chance to try this.
A good bit of me wants this because now is the best time and because it would get Matt moved. I realized today just how much I really want him here with me. But is my desire for him to move clouding my judgement on this job?
We still have a lot of questions. There will be a second interview where Matt can get more information. In the meantime, I think it is best if we keep searching and applying to other jobs.
It was great having Matt here after work yesterday, overnight, this morning, and today after work. It feels like we had a small sampling of what married life will be.
I was surprised by how differently the last two days felt from all the other full days and mini vacations we have taken with each other. These were weekday work days. Getting up early for work, breakfast, picking up groceries, coming home from work and making a quick dinner because Matt had to go to barbershop choir tonight. The only difference from what it will be like almost six months from now is the dynamic of staying with my parents and we did not sleep together.
I think married life is going to suit Matt and I just fine. Even if we are broke!
And a side note. I have felt palpitations on and off all night since about 5:00. And in case I did not note it earlier, I have stopped drinking anything with caffeine since Friday so see if that has any affect on my heart. So far it does not seem so.
Our engagement pictures came in the mail today! Too late to order the Save-the-Dates Matt and I had liked at 40% off.
I took another look at the options over at Mixbook. That is the same company I did Matt’s birthday book through. They are having a sale where Save-the-Dates are 50% off.
We made a beautiful card! I cannot wait for them to arrive and to send them out!
Matt was job searching today. I think he is onto some good leads. Doors will be opening up soon for us.
He is staying the night here, and then going to an interview and continuing his job search.
It is so nice to have Matt here. I know when he does move here we will spend most of our evenings together. It was comforting just to be next to him tonight.
I did not feel palpitations yesterday. But they are back again tonight. They come and go as they please. I will try my best to avoid laying on my left side because that seems to agitate it.
A week from tomorrow is my doctor’s appointment. I have cut out caffeine the last few days and limited my alcohol. I may as well do those things now because that is what my doctor will tell me to do.
All of the extensions are now filed. At least the ones that came in. We still have someone’s name and phone number who came in on April 15th and had us file an extension. He paid us $100 towards his tax prep fee up front and we have not heard from him since. People are crazy.
Matt and I had a good and brief talk tonight. We were much more relaxed than we had been lately. I had not realized how stressed we have both become.
I just played s little bit with Sophie and I am feeling the palpitations again. I am experiencing these 5-7 times a week on average. I am going to guess that is high.
Talking to Matt made me feel so much better. I was rather somber tonight before. I went to Kohl’s because I really needed new jeans. I tried on ten pairs and none of them fit me well. Vera Wang used to have my back.
I feel as though things are starting to look up again for Matt and I.